Oh how much longer must I stay like this:
All depressive, all worried, all hopeless. There were some days that I wish that I never spoke at all, that I was mute and only listened to what others thought of me without feeling offended. Well that will never happen... because too many people feel the same way too.
I wish that I didn't think that the people around me needed space and were hating themselves each and every day. I am a very sad creature and channel their pain and take it as my own. I feel sick as they do, making all my pain worse than the one in the hospital bed.
Every day I pray that God watches their every step and I still do, but who am I to say anything?? I am but a mere vessel and can't force someone bigger than I to do what I wish.
I wish that when people leave they come back and know that I am still waiting on their return. I hope that you find someone special in me and not someone who is only there to slow you down.
Oh Lord, do I pray that you take my